So I want a tattoo. Something that means something to me. Its going to say positivity and I want it on my right hand wrist (palm facing up). Can't visualize it? Oh, thats ok. I photoshoped a picture of what it would look like. Haha I actually uploaded the picture to my facebook and all my friends believed it was real. What can I say? Im pretty good at photoshop. =p Here is the pic:
So my parents wont let me get it. The plan was to get it on my 18th birthday at the end of the month. The only problem is because of all my extra curricular activities and the short film and a bunch of other things that I have been working on I haven't had time to get a job and earn my own money. So there thing is that they dont want me to have one so they are not paying for it. They know I dont have money so that means I wont be able to get it. Parents... So now I need to come up with $80. I have no idea how im going to do just that. =[
I also got a haircut and my brows done today. Looking pretty hot if I say so myself. Going to go shopping tomorrow after school to get the "you picked the wrong boy" outfit for the film competition this weekend where Jake (the asshole that told me he liked me and then a week later had a boyfriend that wasn't me) will be at. Other then seeing him I'm pretty excited! I have shown the film to around 30 people and so far I have gotten great reviews. A lot are saying its too short and that means its good because that means they got into it and it didnt bore them to death. It is only a 5 min film but it took me over 3 months to Write, Produce, Direct, & Edit. So thats all good. =p
Also thanks to everyone that e-mailed me today. It was a great distraction during my boring government class. All we did was watch the state of the union address. I had already seen it so I was pretty bored. =p
UPDATED: I felt the urge to write more. I just read a stupid article on some church website. I closed the page so I dont have the link. It was a question from a mother asking "is my teen son gay" she said she was worried he was because he liked arts more then sports and has no male friends. The person that replied said that people with homosexual tendencies usually have them because there father son relationship sucks and/or because of incest and molestation. WTF? The person then goes on to say that these "tendencies" can change. What bull shit.
If there is a kid out there reading my blog this is for you: You are more then perfect the way you are. If you think there is anything wrong with being gay then please please listen to this: Being gay is not wrong. It's normal and not something that you can choose or change. If you like boys then you like boys. Its not a big deal. Some people wont understand that and tell you its wrong. Well they are wrong. How would they know? Are they gay? No. You are! Do you feel like you are doing something wrong? No? Good. Cause you are not.
I really want to help. If you ever need anyone to talk to about anything. If you are having feelings you don't understand. If you feel like your all alone. If you need a friend. Im here for you. Please understand that. I really do care.
9 comments:
Good speech..., I really hope someone who needs it reads it.
Octavius.
AGREED! Everyone and their dog seems to have some neat little cause-and-effect idea about guys who are gay or who "appear" to be gay. Masculinity and masculine-dominant activities have nothing to do with sexual orientation. But of course that doesn't fit the str8 mode of thinking. I've lost count of how many macho dudes and sports-loving guys prefer other boys rather than girls. The big sports thing is sometimes a cover-up anyway. I was a jock in high school and university - championship wrestler - and never appeared effeminate nor did I ever "feel" girly, but I got it on with dudes not dudettes
Aahh well, morons will always be morons.
Very good thoughts for the "someone" out there questioning themselves.
Just forgive me here I mean no insult, I don't think you are but I may have missed something - however, that tattoo could be misconstrued related to being HIV positive, as opposed to being a positive attitude, etc. Either way, I think it's a very nice tattoo though.
I like the tattoo idea. I also think it's a very nice place you picked...
Why did you choose that word specifically? As in, "optimism" would be cool too (as a response to Seth)
Nice words for the someone out there who'd need it (like me lol)
It's often not that the someone does not know what you said but rather finds it hard to fully accept it or remind himself about it... For some, it takes more time than others I guess
Take Care!
Sam
This old homosexual guy (I'm fuckin honest!) loves your commments on being gay! (although I don't like the gay word; heteros use it to stereotype homosexuals as effeminate; not that there is anything wrong with that, but you could mistake many homosexuals for lumberjacks!) I do not advise getting tattoos on highly visible areas; someday you may be out in the real world of employment and you may regret this. Twenty years from now you are a much different person; you may look at some tattoos and say 'what the hell was I thinking!' I saw a beautiful tattoo on Ludicolo (search xtube.com) and most of it was in front below the waist. Very beautiful. He's fuckin hot too! And oh yeah, whether as a result of genes or experience or both; once you are past puberty and you identify as homosexual, nothing is going to change that; you can go into denial and marry a girl if you want (if you can live with your conscience!) but remember there are thousands of middle-aged men with families getting expensive divorces because they chose to deny the truth.
That BS started with Sigmund Freud around 100 years ago and people still believe it, unfortunately. Whatever the site it was you were reading, I can assure that there are 100s, if not 1000s, more like it.
On the other hand, more-and-more people are beginning to understand and accept that we are not mental defects, and we may well have been born LGB. That's what I think, personally.
Amen Brother! I like the way you put it.
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@Octavius: thanks! =p
@ceepeeca: yah i guess that wont every change...
@Seth: positivity... not positive. i guess someone could think that way but that would be pretty negative... haha
@Sam: haha thanks. I think its a good place also.
@wayner: its not highly visable. Its small and it can easily be covered with a long sleeve shirt in the workplace. Or a jacket or coat. Its something thats elegant and meaningful. No random hearts and rainbows. lol
@Mr. HCI: it really is stupid. I can just hope that one day people will look back and say: "how dumb where we back then?" like they do with slavery.
@Scottie : thanks =p
That's me, ever negative.
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